so i have been waiting on writing something about this but i think the best way to put this weekend in a few words is, eye opening.

there were so many beast teams, and most i have grown as a dancer with. it made me think about my team and where we are, and where i am.

i am so grateful for everyone who spoke to me and finding some new mentors. hopefully i have a new chapter in my life that is coming very soon.

but overall, there will be a lot of change coming, for me, for the dance community hopefully, for my team, and my endeavors. im just hoping that everything works out in the end.

as of lately why do i feel like i may be the most sane person in this room.

its really not that hard to change, its really not that hard to want to do something

u just have to want to

everything else is excuses. i was criticized soo much by my personal relationships and its kinda sad that the ones pointing fingers are starting to seek me to answer questions on their lives.

its simple, be happy.

dont sit and try and make him feel guilty, in the end man up and say im sorry, i dont care, you mean more to me than this stupid issue.

women, we are the worst, and yes i am not perfect and i struggle trying to fix everything, but damn yo, why do we try and turn it into a soap opera.

life, love, and happiness is not that complicated, what is complicated is putting all of that above our ego, and ladies, we have huge ones.

so all im saying is, and i say this with love, suck it up and stop being b****es
if you want them to love you, then stop trying to test them, manipulate, make shit complicated when its not.

just STOP 

Got a call from Ty Cooper today to talk about registration fees.

He asked how i was, i said not good.

she is gonna be with us at our competition, Ty said he wanted to recognize her.

I feel like everytime i try to get better, i find something, read something, hear something, that just sets me back.

how do you move one without forgetting without sadness.

I honestly dont know what we are going to do. its been 1 week and 1 day. And to top it off im in the living room where we waited for that dreaded phone call. but nothing.

i freaked out last night. i was alone. i need you. like screw everything else, i miss you every day, every minute, and i still feel guilty for not telling you how much i loved you. like damn. i love you

With family….yay

why is it an issue, why is it an issue.

started off ok, got a call, and now im just trying to not be pissed.

im just gonna stare at photos to not get mad.